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No Teacher, No Method, No Guru

One of my favorite songs of all time is one by Van Morrison, “In the Garden”. I discovered it soon after the death of the man who allowed me to discover and live a level of love that was transfiguring and a dual awakening for both of us.

The streets are always wet with rain
After a summer shower when I saw you standin’
In the garden, in the garden wet with rain

You wiped the teardrops from your eye in sorrow
As we watched the petals fall down to the ground
And as I sat beside you I felt the
Great sadness that day in the garden

And then one day you came back home
You were a creature all in rapture
You had the key to your soul
And you did open that day you came back to the garden

The olden summer breeze was blowin’ on your face
The light of God was shinin’ on your countenance divine
And you were a violet color as you
Sat beside your father and your mother in the garden

The summer breeze was blowin’ on your face
Within your violet you treasure your summery words
And as the shiver from my neck down to my spine
Ignited me in daylight and nature in the garden

And you went into a trance
Your childlike vision became so fine
And we heard the bells inside the church
We loved so much
And felt the presence of the youth of
Eternal summers in the garden

And as it touched your cheeks so lightly
Born again you were and blushed and we touched each other lightly
And we felt the presence of the Christ

And I turned to you and I said
No guru, no method, no teacher
Just you and I and nature
And the Father, in the garden

No guru, no method, no teacher
Just you and I and nature
And the Father and the
Son and the Holy Ghost

In the garden wet with rain
No guru, no method, no teacher
Just you and I and nature and the Holy Ghost
In the garden, in the garden, wet with rain
No guru, no method, no teacher
Just you and I and nature
And the Father in the garden

I discovered a higher order of human relating with Peter – as two mystic lovers with an unyielding YES to each other and dying in love – letting the power of what was arising/descending in and through us to destroy our separateness and defenses. We were challenged daily to become capable of more love, more beauty, more ecstasy. It was often unbearable – brutal in a strange way. It’s so much easier to be a little miserable, bored or frustrated in our relationships. To be given such preciousness, knowing simultaneously that it cannot be possessed, and can be lost at any moment – was heartbreakingly difficult and wonderful. I am forever grateful – even though I’ve had to bear both the living and the loss of the grace of our love.

There is development and maturity in this journey we are on. Those of us with the good fortune to discover a deep desire for something more than the superficial aspects of life have been working, growing and awakening.

All evolution entails ever-increasing complexity and integration as we spiral up the ladder of creation. It’s been important to develop our individuality to a very intense degree. To study and learn and become more of who we authentically are as individuals, wonderfully unique and like no human being ever before or ever again.

Before I met Peter, I had studied, worked on myself and taught intensively for more than 12 years. I was singularly focused and happily obsessed with work and my spiritual path. I had been relatively well-known and respected in the est (Landmark) world and had thrown it all to the wind and followed my unquestioning passionate instincts that led me to leave my husband, sell all my worldly possessions and go to Oregon to an ashram called Rajneeshpuram. There I met Peter, young German mystic carpenter. When we began our love affair – I found myself unmistakenly in “the Garden” – yes, that garden wet with rain.

At that point, the capacity to open myself up and take risks emotionally and psychically was highly developed as a teacher. Being a 33 year old woman, I was primed for an encounter with my twin soul with my body, heart and hormones ready and willing to say YES.

Life began to live through us, intensely making us glow, grow and love in a way that transformed us both in the fire of our 3 ½ years together. Without exaggeration, it was more than most people can imagine. One day in the life we shared, moved us with more intensity, power and spiritual growth than any other time in my life. It was relentlessly impactful, more so than any experience of being in a course or retreat or time with an awakened teacher. It was shocking and breathtaking and showed me the power of being in “The Garden”.

I remember walking across Central Park a few years after Peter died on a first date with a very handsome and accomplished opera conductor. Clearly he was interesting, intelligent and sensitive. But as the beautiful summer light illuminated the trees as we walked together, all he could do was talk “about” things. Interesting things, but it was dead, not alive, nothing real was occurring.

The moments with Peter were real, poignant and full of beauty – our love was an art form. Walking through the park with him would have ended up with an unforgettable memory and our love being propelled forward. How much of ‘normal’ relating is merely conceptual and not ‘living’ at all?

I realized later – that we spend so much of our time being supposedly intimate with our friends and loved ones, “talking about” life and what has happened – not creating that moment of connection and interplay with that person in that moment.

When I was with Peter, I had no interest in “talking about” my life. To stop the unfolding moments would have been unthinkable – why stop what is alive to ‘talk about’ it? The momentum of living was there.

Somehow we were guided seamlessly to discover the conditions necessary to have this particular kind of relationship. One that is mutual, distinct, deeply personal & contactful in the way our souls touched each other. And our experience of “Just you and I and nature and the Father and the Son and the Holy Ghost in the Garden” was the presence of the evolutionary impulse, or eros. It was set free to move in and through us. We used to laugh about feeling like millionaires in this domain of love. Something had been released and was taking us like a torrent.

When he died, I was forced to become clear about what I knew. I longed to go deep and feel what is possible with others. It’s a great gift to be given something so beautiful – so filled with grace. And it is a burden. I could never forget the reality of love or be at peace without it. It was incumbent upon me to discover how to make the space for the love and beauty to descend into this world again.

Millions of us have experienced the depth and beauty of being in retreats, groups and workshops – at the end or during the experience of being together, we get a glimpse of the power and joy of being together, trusting each other, laughing, not taking ourselves so seriously and often being inspired to give more fully, serve life beyond what our individuality would normally come up with.

Then we return to our ‘normal’ lives where the conditions are different, the implicit and unspoken agreements with those we love not always conducive to deep trust and inspiration.

Now, seems to be the time, where we are meant to find ‘the Garden’ together. And as we surrender to what is possible between us and allow the holy spirit and the Father to come through our connectedness in new ways – we discover that ‘No teacher, no method, no guru. Just you and I, in nature and the Father in the garden’ is more than enough. In fact, there is an awakening that can only happen together in this way.

I didn’t know why I was left here without him for almost 20 years. In the last few years I discovered it was to create the space for the multiple beloveds – not just the two of us – but the many. That in fact, I was waiting for this time – when we are meant to come together in a precise and intentional way, to find ‘the Garden’ and be transformed together into a new Being and a new way of being and loving.

Six years ago, choicelessly, I was guided to create the Evolutionary Collective – a space that would be ‘the Garden’ for the many. It’s been a humbling endeavor – to never know for sure the ‘how’ and yet the grace and guidance has been there and we’ve found our way together into that ‘garden’. The beauty of the shared experience and development is overwhelming and also, so natural. It’s the way we all know it can be between us – our deepest longing fulfilled. To witness human love and connection at his level, gives me a kind of faith in life and our future that I didn’t know I was missing.

I’m about to travel to Boulder/Denver to participate in the What Next conference with Integral Life. The topic of my teaching is “The Future of Relationships”. The future is a higher order of human relating – the consciousness of the multiple beloveds as an awakening together. I can say with certainty, it’s happening and it’s what the future holds for us all.

What’s Hot for Patricia Right Now…


Currently Reading: Shikasta by Doris Lessing

Practice Focus: The ‘Wayern’ practice from the Evolutionary Collective – a multi-dimensional, inter-subjective practice.

Currently Watching: 24

Currently Listening To: Van Morrison

Shadow Element or Emotion Discovered While Writing This: Procrastination.

Link of the Week: Mugsy the alligator-fighting cat – the Jack Bauer of kitties

Patricia Albere is an internationally recognized change agent and contemporary spiritual teacher passionate about the large-scale transformation available through new forms of collective consciousness and evolutionary relationships. For 40 years, she has taught from the emerging edge of consciousness, awakening others to profound depths and infinite wisdom accessed by way of two or more people connected to larger and more powerful evolutionary forces. Albere is the founder of the Evolutionary Collective, a new model for awakened community; and is the host of Evolutionary Collective Conversations, a global webcast in which today’s top evolutionary leaders join Patricia for dynamic live dialogues.

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8 Responses to “No Teacher, No Method, No Guru”

  1. Lisa jl
    December 7, 2012 at 6:02 pm #

    This is profound, Patricia. You are a blessing in this world. Thank you.

  2. Bob
    December 7, 2012 at 6:21 pm #

    Standard boomer indulgence & sensationalizing of what is..

  3. Patricia
    December 8, 2012 at 7:28 am #

    Or, it’s possible that it’s something you have never experienced.  One of the distinctions of mystical experience is that it is ‘ineffable” – direct experience is beyond concepts and only in a kind of poetic and indirect expression is it possible to point to it.  We had a dual awakening, which is an unusual direction for spiritual development.

  4. Jeff Carreira
    December 10, 2012 at 7:59 am #

    Dear Patricia, what a beautiful post – it is an honor and a pleasure to have the opportunity to work with you. 

  5. Judye Fox
    December 11, 2012 at 4:53 pm #

    It’s so beautiful what you have written Patricia. I am deeply moved. with much love, Judy

  6. Aza H. Williams
    December 31, 2012 at 7:17 pm #

    Dearest Patricia, Reading your words was an open vista of our world full of Life and Love..  Thank you for a breathtaking view into our magical world of reality.  I look forward to being in your presence again and again. Love, Aza

  7. Patriciaalbere
    January 2, 2013 at 6:19 am #

     Aza,   Me too…  I loved being with you in NYC – I hope to be with you again in 2013. Much love, Patricia

  8. suzanne
    January 5, 2013 at 9:16 pm #

    Thank you for writing this with such sensitivity and depth and understanding, Patricia. It fills me with gratitude for the relationship I share with my partner. You’ve expressed the ineffable, and done it beautifully.

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